Don't know what to do.?

in july i had my quince.. i have 3 older brothers bt one of them lives in california... after i had my quince my middle brother left back to cali.. nd in aug. 12 i was textin with him nd he told me that wants to move back to virginia wit me nd my family nd he wants to go college nd do something with his life... bt on the 14.. i got a fone call from his friend nd he told dat he just found out dat my brother is in jail.. when he told dat i didnt cry i didnt say nothing i just kept thinkin its nt true dat im dream... i dont know how long he goin 2 do be in there..everytime he has a court nothing really happens.. everydays i cry i wish he was with me.. i know things happen for a reason.. bt it is da worst thing dat ever happen 2 me... sometimes i dnt feel lik wakin up until he s back home.. also sometimes at skool i think of my brother nd i start cryin.. my friends dont understand what me nd my family are going throw.. im nt the type of person that likes to show my feels alot.. i dont know what to do i write to my brother everyweek...bt it hurts me that he in there... my family dont how i feel.. i have never told them how i feel.. i love my brother more than anything in this world..i don't talk to no one about this bt i think its time to show how i feel its not going to be easy but it don't hurt trying...